Dreaming
最近,喜欢上晚上做梦。且觉得,睡的越晚,越容易做梦。
这事奇怪,梦也奇怪。
有梦见,很可爱、漂亮,会说话的猫。
还有些人物,感觉是些生活中曾遇见的人物,虽然在梦中都只是无名氏。
有些梦,有深深无助的感觉;有些梦,让人颤栗不已;也有些梦,荒诞怪异。
都是些,感觉不太好的梦。
只是,梦醒了,却无事了。不再觉得,有任何不好的感觉。
也许,不好的感觉,都在梦中经历完了吧。
如此,做梦挺不错的。
另外,觉得做梦,能帮助人思考。
许多,萦绕心头解不开的问题,隔夜之后,总能有所明白。
难道,人在梦中也在战斗吗?甚好。
我喜欢,无时无刻都在战斗的感觉。
Extremely awful experience last night
At 12 o'clock last night, I just woke up from short-term sleep. After the completion of a task—an easy learning thing—it's still a long time to the dawn, thereby I decided to do something to kill time.
Although I think it's fairly awful to watch videos like movies, cartoons and such at late nights all along, I guess probably mental condition is comparatively at low and lack of self-restraint at night. I always couldn't stop doing some things which I would overly regret soon. Last night it's even worse because I watched lots of films full of violence, death and bloody murder and the like. Bad experience it was! I simply only wanted to watch some other kinds of films to have a fun at first, but these films had certainly attracted me. Doomed to be not ok. I didn't like any of them!
I felt horribly bad and was tired when the time was getting close to 6, thus I forced myself to sleep holding a thought that I could get rid of all unfavorable influences imposed on me. But nothing was relieved, nightmares chased me continuously, made me feel like in a cold lifeless horrific scene until I got up from bed hours later. Terribly afflictive it was! I didn't have any deep sleep, whereas nightmares even reminded me of some of them I had before, like nightmare season 2?
I cannot remember any detail now, but the feelings still remain. Don't want to have them anymore.