At 12 o'clock last night, I just woke up from short-term sleep. After the completion of a task—an easy learning thing—it's still a long time to the dawn, thereby I decided to do something to kill time.

    Although I think it's fairly awful to watch videos like movies, cartoons and such at late nights all along, I guess probably mental condition is comparatively at low and lack of self-restraint at night. I always couldn't stop doing some things which I would overly regret soon. Last night it's even worse because I watched lots of films full of violence, death and bloody murder and the like. Bad experience it was! I simply only wanted to watch some other kinds of films to have a fun at first, but these films had certainly attracted me. Doomed to be not ok. I didn't like any of them!

    I felt horribly bad and was tired when the time was getting close to 6, thus I forced myself to sleep holding a thought that I could get rid of all unfavorable influences imposed on me. But nothing was relieved, nightmares chased me continuously, made me feel like in a cold lifeless horrific scene until I got up from bed hours later. Terribly afflictive it was! I didn't have any deep sleep, whereas nightmares even reminded me of some of them I had before, like nightmare season 2? 

    I cannot remember any detail now, but the feelings still remain. Don't want to have them anymore.