希望国家能将奥运会顺利举办成功，也借此希望能让西方国家更多地了解中国。

 

矛盾，大多起源于互相的不了解。我如此认为。

"One World One Dream."

不寻求世界文化的融合，但这个世界只有一个。

我们再此，共同拥有。

"We are the world."
"We are the children."
"We are the ones who make a brighter day."

最近几天总是做相同的梦，至少连续三天以上吧。奇特的梦，折磨人。又时序颠倒，对外界有感应存在时已是午间，更显得痛苦，毕竟是在大白天里做噩梦。

    说是噩梦，但似乎也算不上，只是梦十分地奇怪，但又使人欲罢不能。不明白，想忽视过去，但林林种种的许多，某种意义上说，是“不断地重复”吧，虽说有些许差别，却迫使人不得不放在心上。

    这些，总会让人产生些滑稽的想法，或者说十分地傻气，也许在他人眼里，就是如此这样的。但，没有办法，什么办法也没有，因为心中已认定这个世界必定有常规可循。不过，若这是命运使然的话，在这种坚持的放弃或改变前，不断做些荒诞的事情，到也是可以原谅的。毕竟是命运决定，由不得己。

    于是，今天刚醒，就下定心意，要将梦境回忆起来。说起来十分可笑，似乎这种心意是在梦中就已决定。如此便是，梦中决定在梦醒后要将梦中的意境回忆起来。这似乎比，不记得梦却晓得在不断地重复相同的梦，更有意思。

    虽说，总身不由己地做些滑稽可笑的事情，但倘若事情还有些意思，到也无妨。慢慢地回忆，把梦境的图画，或者是对梦的灵觉感应，在大脑消散之前，用可以记忆的、特定的、从属于本身的符号、文字、话语等记录下来。如此，就有了对梦的连接，而不至于只剩下类似幻觉的感应。

    于是最后，除却无法表达的记忆感知外，记下了如此一些符号或连接：屋子，家？，对话，不理解，折磨，现实，错误，隔离，绝望，无力感，丧失；另一个屋子，下雨，鱼，无数的鱼，血，欲望，满足，错误，灭杀，无限的鱼，无限的欲望，无限的满足，恐怖，折磨，寻求，无解，绝望，无力感，丧失。

    真是荒唐的词话语。但，不可停止！不可停止？为什么却也不明白，傻透了！那我又可以怎么做了？封闭一切，以避免自我厌恶？莫明其妙，我在厌恶什么！是自身，还是自身在形象世界中的存在。 continue...

最近，喜欢上晚上做梦。且觉得，睡的越晚，越容易做梦。

这事奇怪，梦也奇怪。

有梦见，很可爱、漂亮，会说话的猫。

还有些人物，感觉是些生活中曾遇见的人物，虽然在梦中都只是无名氏。

有些梦，有深深无助的感觉；有些梦，让人颤栗不已；也有些梦，荒诞怪异。

都是些，感觉不太好的梦。

只是，梦醒了，却无事了。不再觉得，有任何不好的感觉。

也许，不好的感觉，都在梦中经历完了吧。

如此，做梦挺不错的。

 

另外，觉得做梦，能帮助人思考。

许多，萦绕心头解不开的问题，隔夜之后，总能有所明白。

难道，人在梦中也在战斗吗？甚好。

我喜欢，无时无刻都在战斗的感觉。

 

Yesterday, when my friend droped by my place, I selected some wallpapers from interfacelift.com for him. Three of them that have lake and tree are very beautiful. Here is preview (the left in the top row is old):

I like them very much and recommend them (especially the one in the lower left corner) to everyone. You can search their names on interfacelift.com to find right size ones.

Their names: Fronzen Tree; Sunday Morning II; Lack of Dreams; Sunset at the bay.

 

 

有一些探讨人性的影视文学作品，常涉及这样一个观点：人之贪婪，使之为人也。

有点无奈的说法，却也直抵核心。人之为何为人，而非机器或其他，多半也因为存在这些那些很人性的缺点及优点吧。

此外，还有这样一句话：后人哀之而不鉴之，亦使后人而复哀后人也。

探讨历史群体人性的一句话，来自杜牧的《阿房宫赋》，很精练地概述了人类历史上存在的问题。同时，我亦觉得这句话也可以恰当地运用在个人身上：鉴之前所做，而不再重蹈覆辙，以至后悔。

我痛恨后悔的感觉，非常地。后悔在我看来是很无奈的人性，想不明白，却始终经历。但各种矛盾，人心、群体、国家、社会都存在，谁也不喜欢，只有尽量努力协调吧。

We are all human beings, 人的天性都是相似的，每个人都该有着相似的目的吧，我想。虽然，我不明白，为何世上有着各种矛盾，但根源都该是来自人的天性。既然，人内心的矛盾是不可避免的，那一切矛盾都不可能完全消除。就像完美与永恒，始终是矛盾的。

 

------

早上8：03就醒了，困，冷，又躺下睡了。迷迷糊糊地做了几个梦，梦见了两个人的两个故事，很极端特别的人，但具体什么人、什么故事已不记得了，只记得是两个人，且处于两个相反的极端。还梦见一些山，人迹罕至、杳无人烟的山，连连起伏，形成一片山陵地带。但长得很好，没有人，却不荒芜，真是奇怪。

真是异常奇怪的梦，不知以弗洛伊德的梦论学该做何解释，该是如何的潜意识愿望了。

睡了会儿，隐隐听见窗外哗哗的声响，该不是下雨了吧，衣服还晾着了。看时间，已经10：59了。

起床，收衣服，洗漱，下楼吃饭。

感觉天气又变冷了不少，冻，要买衣服了。

Yesterday, I read a article by Jay Dixit about dreams. It says that dreaming is a sensitive system that tries to pay much attention to the threatening cues in our environment, and as Harvard's Barrett puts it, the dreams are just thinking in a different biochemical state.

    This artcile descrbiles a bit devilish study first in which researchers at the University of Wisconsin at Madison tried to find out what will happen when a rat stops dreaming. The result of study was that rats lost their ability to defend themeslves. Finnish psychologist Antti Revonsuo believes that this is not because they were exhausted but because they were robbed of their dreams. Dreams, he contends, are a training ground in which animals and people alike go over the behaviors that probably are the key to prevent themselves from danger. In article, the author analyzed many situations and gave out several real instances, as well as quoted Revonsuo and other scientists' arguments and conclusions, trying to figure out the stuff of dreams. It's amusing and thought-provoking, and really gave me a clear recognition of dreams.

    In a article of New Concept English I read before, I already knew that we need sleep not because we need to rest our bodies but because we need dreams. In psychiatrist William Dement's experiments, people in test who showed some personality disorders because they were disturbed from their rapid eye-movement or REM sleep—which indicates dreaming—for several nights on end. And in this article, I got to know more about dreams.

    Dreams basically simuates virtual realities, most of which are so lifelike that they often confuse us and make us think that is really happening. I read a book on psychopathology of everyday life and interpretation of dreams by Freud before, he told that dreams are secret accomplishments or satisfactions of subconscious wishes. This author also quoted Freud's opinion, that Freud saw dreams as convoluted pathways toward fulfilling forbidden aggressive and sexual wishes and that frightening dreams were just wishes in disguises. It makes sense for me, yet this article goes further in addressing the function of dreams. It says that dreams are a sort of theater in which our brains screen realistic scenarios and the primary of function of negative dreams is rehearsal for similar real events, in which we don't dream about other people, only ourselves. We practice reactions in our dreams over and over again to ensure our own survivals when confronted with a threat.

    Just a few days before, after I watched a lot of violent and bloody murder films at late night, I dreamed a lot about scenarios that I was chased and threatened. In that cold lifeless world, there were dangerous events, negative emotions, monsters, near-death experiences and such far more sinister than in waking life. Now, I know that our dreams just served to protect us, why I dreamed that horrific scene that night because during our sleep the dreaming brains scans emotional memories, when it detects a memory trace with a strong negative emotion—which probably derived from awful experiences in real life—and then it constructs a nightmare around that theme. Probably it feels not good at frist, but it just tries to train us in dreams. If you conquer dread in dreams, yourself will improve. So a function of dreams as Revonsuo thinks is to protect and prepare us, thereby dreams simulate emergency situations and provide an arena for safe training. Why the dream world is so filled peril is to simuate the potential threats and prepare us to react quickly in dangerous encounters.

    In last paragraph "The Nighttime Edge", it talks about the dreams' edge over consicous thought. It gives an example we all knew in high school that how German chemist Friedrich August Kekule found the molecular structure of benzene, which is because he dreamed about a snake devouring its own tail and this had inspired him. Sometimes we probably had been in similar situations, for which we got better at tasks just by dreaming about them. Thus, a sleep researcher at Harvard Medical School, Robert Stickgold holds that dreaming is much more complex than rehearsal. I totally agree with his statement that sleep makes us to integrate and consolidate knowledge and during sleep our brains are making sense of the world, discoving new associations among existing memories, looking for patterns, formulating rules. Stickgold also think this is how we create meaning. This makes me think a lot. Although we rarely remember our dreams, but dreaming practically happens in our brains during sleep. Even if we are not aware of what is happening in dreams, we probably all had felt before that we once better understand some complicated problems after nights of dreaming.

    After reading this article, I started to think the dreaming as a sort of thinking activity on another level just as Barrett contends that the purpose of dreaming is as broad as all waking thought and says dreams as really just thinking in a different biochemical state. Dreams is also worring what we are worrying about in waking life, however levels differ, it often solves problems in a fancy way, unconsciously. And so it is, ancestors believed that dreams predicted the future. But we all don't understand dreaming completely, even though it is so basic to human existence. It consumes years of our lives, certainly plays a important role in our lives. In this area, we need more research.

    At last, I highly recommend this article to anyone interested in more information on this topic, you will know the stuff of dreams more deep inside.

“我希求的是接受外力忍耐外力的强壮，是能够静静忍受不公平不走运不理解误解和悲伤等种种情况的强壮。”

——《海边的卡夫卡》

时间静悄悄地流逝，是以为一切停止。万物的潮汐变化，才得以明白一切并未死寂。

好想，每一天每一夜，无论何时醒来，都能真实感受，时间留下的痕迹。

好想，每一刻每一瞬，始终足够清醒，祈求彷徨不愿，不再侵占我的心。

------

1. 在网上搜了一个dreamscene破解文件，给D版enterprise装上了梦幻桌面。只是还没找到足够令我满意的Dream Scene。
2. 将vista的任务栏移到左侧，不适感在慢慢地适应。
3. 默认的vista样式总觉过于臃肿，将win窗口border padding调整为2，title bar调整为18，颜色为Graphite，以及其他一些细致调整，整体感觉exquisite和trim了不少。
4. Firefox的默认主题，早已看厌，换了不少主题，确始终不如原来的让人感觉舒适。只是想有个新鲜感，却怎么也不让我满足，郁闷！
   
5. interfacelift.com上有许多很不错的桌面背景图片。找了一张sunset city作为现在背景。
6. 一切只愿足够简单，想来开机运行后，始终只是连续点下firefox和powerword就已足够。