常常觉得，在生活里，特别是情感上，都一直在寻找一些可依赖、可依靠的对象，来支撑自己，不然会十分地茫然无助。而当这种需求得不到满足的时候，往往会导致一些无聊、偏激的行为。比如，会做些没有道理的事情。这是为什么？

    无论正确与否，无论盲目与否，都不可否认的是，我一直在对一些可依靠的事物或者力量的代表强烈地需求着。而那可依靠的事物或者力量的代表具体是些什么了？

    教义，佛、道？规则、学说？智者，对的事情？却也说不清楚。但可以确定的是，这种类似不断寻找踏实的土地的行为，让我觉得真的很累。

不要轻言生命的离去，它的伤痛是你永远也无法接受的。

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善待自己，为自己，为他人。

相信自己，为上帝，为佛祖。

感谢所有，为所爱与爱你的人。

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善待，相信，并虔诚感恩。

God bless you!

Will You Be There

Michael Jackson

 

Hold me
Like the River Jordan
And I will then say to thee
You are my friend

Carry me
Like you are my brother
Love me like a mother
Will you be there?
....

When weary
Tell me will you hold me
When wrong will you scold me
When lost would you find me

But they told me
A man should be faithful
And walk when not able
And fight till the end
But I'm only human
...

I like this song—Will You Be There—very much. It often moved me. This time while I listen to this music feelingly, read its lyric line by line and write them so carefully down, it affects me much more and touches my heart deeply, even to tears inside.

Something made me sad these days, cuz I am such a foolish and stupid man.
It depresses me that I even don't know how to do, and how to face.
Although I don't know why, I really don't want to know the hearts of men now.
It means not so much to me.
Cry if you want to, don't pretend to be ok.
You are only human.

I don't want to say something is right or wrong, which means nothing.
I don't want to build myself up by making others wrong, which also means nothing.
However, I believe I can face to everything, even if nothing is right.
Whatever happens, I believe something, like the song When You Believe (Whitney Houston & Mariah Carey) sings:

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail

Hold me, like the River Jordan.
Carry me, like you are my brother.
Love me, like a mother.
...
When I believe, you will be there. I think.